April Writing Challenge- Day 25: A Balance Of Truth


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There have been times when I would get so amazed by something that may not seem like anything to anyone, but it holds so much meaning to me. Gazing at the sunrise and sunrise stop me in my tracks as I admired its beauty. It’s so magical being hypnotized by such grandeur. Its only truth is that every day you are alive you will get to see it.

It’s something about the word truth that most people would run away from it. Or, to knowledge how true somethingcan be. It is said that if you speak the truth it shall set you free. I believe with some truths it will set you free, so you can fly away from others.

The writing challenge for today is to think of a word and search it in Google Image and write something inspiring about the 11th image. The image above is the 11th image and when I saw it, I had to recount to make sure it was indeed the eleventh image. It wouldn’t be my choice if I had to pick it on my own, but as I studied it, I realized it was appropriate for today’s challenge. It’s a scale with a person using a magnifying glass holding it up to the word “truth” as it is expanded.

The challenge is to write something inspiring from the image and the way my week went I could use some inspiration. I hope I could do the image some justice. Here goes:

When the truth is magnified, we must understand the purpose behind what we don’t know. When we avoid the truth, it weakens the balance of what we perceive the truth to be and what we perceive to be a lie. Or something unknown in between. The universal experience we can share should not make us want to hide away our true selves because the lie is better than the truth.

Why is a lie better? Most people are afraid and most don’t care. Though, we must be true to ourselves and not give in to the masses who believe that if they lie long enough and often that others will believe them, and in. most cases, wholeheartedly. We must hold steadfast to what we believe in, what we work so hard for, and not give up. And not give in.

Life IS better when everyone is honest and respectful and caring with love in the heart. But, the real world isn’t known to be that way and still, we must know that sometimes it is best not to say anything. And yet, being silent is the same as saying something. So what then?

It is hard. Hard because of everything that is happening and what had happened in yesteryears, we don’t know if we are being lied to or being told the truth. We have to get the understanding for ourselves and not jump so quickly on the bandwagon to what was spoken into our ears. We have to ask ourselves if what we are being told is the truth. We must feel it in our spirit and if our spirit doesn’t feel right, then we just simply cannot be agreeable to what is being said. From anyone. In all situations.

Nevertheless, with each other, the truth should be bonafide. The truth should be balance. It can be simple or difficult. The choice is yours to make.

“This is a difficult balance, telling the truth: how much to share, how much to keep, which truths will wound but not ruin, which will cut too deep to heal.”
Ally Condie
See the truth in everything.
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Do you believe there should be a balance where the truth is concerned? How do you perceive the truth?

Stay safe and be blessed. Do great things and may you all have positivity and happiness in your days.

Thank you all for reading.

April Writing Challenge- Day 24: A Lesson I’ve Learned The Hard Way


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Hi all! It was only three days ago that I wrote about lessons but it was about lessons my child should learn from me. Today’s #writing challenge is about a lesson I have learned the hard way.

One of the lesson I had to learned the hard way was trying to be like someone else. One of the many things I don’t like that I do about myself is being someone else instead of just being who I am. Someone told me a long time ago, “Pam, how you expect someone to get to know you when you barely let anyone in and you don’t know who it is you are.” I’ve been thinking about that statement for years. You see, I had already felt that being myself was a crime because I would get reprimanded. So, if I couldn’t be me then who should I be?

I had to learn that I am unique because I am. And if I am just like anyone else, then that wouldn’t make me unique. Learning to separate myself from the rest and to take a look within to get to know myself. I had wasted time watching how most men go for certain females. Back when I my size was in the single digit, I would wear wear my shirt and jeans that fit close to my skin. I wanted to show off my slight curves even though I was also skinny. Till this day, I don’t care about being a size 4 or a size 6 anymore because I still didn’t like myself even when I didn’t had much fat on my body.

Still, I would dress that way and would change it up to dress in baggy clothes because I was something of a girly tomboy. I attracted the wrong attention dressing in almost-tight clothing. I wore no makeup and I had minimal jewelry. I was young and dumb and wanted to fit in. I had that I had constantly wasted years of my life that I cannot get back being whoever someone wanted me to be. And when I did, some of those people still didn’t stick around or came around when it was convenient for them.

It was hard for me to follow my own path and to not get caught up in the latest trends. It was hard for me to feel like I have to use so much energy and time to not get someone’s attention, but to hold it. It was like I had to do so much to do so, while I was just getting the bare minimal in return. It was hard for me not to questioned myself about what is wrong with me that I can be all that I can try to be, so a person wouldn’t just leave. I supposed it come from trying to do so with my family. The side of the family who took my siblings and me into their home only wanted us to be seen and not heard. And with me being the oldest, I got it worst.

Those times were something I had to seriously learn from so I can work on myself. I have to tell myself that it was okay being myself and not get caught up with what I see on social media, and not become something or someone that I’m not. I had to tell myself that just because a guy ogled over those Instagram models and I am with him or we was to get into a relationship, that I shouldn’t lose my cool. I shouldn’t lose my self-respect arguing to a guy about why he do so much for and give attention to other females while he with me.

And over the years when some of these guys would be trying to get with me, they still keep going for these females telling me one thing and doing another.

Now, I have stopped trying to be someone else and have stopped people-pleasing. I have done so much work on myself spiritually wise mostly that I have become super protective of my space and energy. And that definitely includes the guys who want to use me and want me to be like this or that just for their own desires or whatever.

While doing this post, so much was going on and this post was going in a direction I didn’t originally plan. There was things I wanted to get off my chest that I couldn’t talk about…yet.

Thank you for reading and understanding that my head space is quite muddled now. I hope you all are doing well and staying safe.

Stay tuned for Day 25.

April Writing Challenge- Day 23: A Letter To Someone


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There is something so magical and beautiful about holding a pen of any kind between your fingers and gliding it across paper forming words that were probably spoken once but though of countless times.

I can’t tell you how many times I’ve done this. It’s almost like exercising until I feel that cramp in my hand that I’ve been writing too much and should take a break. The simple act of gliding isn’t the problem. It’s the fact that my mind moves faster than my hand can’t keep up with. I love it still and occasionally still write by hand.

Before, just a couple of years ago, I had written six or more pages of letters that I wanted to say to each and every individual for whatever has happened between us. After I wrote the letters, I looked them over and burned them. It was a spiritual act of letting go and healing from the inside out. Though I felt better than I had previously, I still feel like I need to do more cleansing.

For today’s writing challenge, I am to write a letter to someone, whoever I chooses. The thing is, I don’t know who at the moment. So the following letter may be more general than personal as I been think about who to write a letter to all day long and now it is the next morning.

Dearest you,

I want you to know that you are unique and worthy of being love. Times get difficult and you may find yourself feeling like you are just about water, but know that I am here for you. I am here to support you and be an ear to listen to you when you talk. I will simply do my best to be that friend for you. You have not only me, but a community of people who are here for you. You are never alone.

I may tell you that I have spent time looking for love and hoping that it will someday find me, but I will tell you that though that is over, and don’t be like me who have given up. Practice self-love and put yourself first. Don’t be so trusting and guard your heart. Do affirmations and meditation.

My friend, I can’t tell you how to live your life because we only get one, but I want you to know that if you don’t take your own life serious and do something with it, someone else will. And it may be something you don’t want. Live your dreams. Achieve those goals. Get out there and live! Because you don’t want to look at yourself in the mirror decades later and realize just how much your whole life have pass you by. Take time for yourself to do whatever it is you want to do. And be whoever you want to be. You are the captain of your ship. You are remarkable and so kind. One day before you know it, you will know the real reason why everything happened and why it did. I hope and pray that from this day and many days to come that you continue to be great. I know no one is perfect, but how caring and loving, and the determination and hard work you put into what you do, you will get to where you want to be, who you want to be, and where you want to be in life. Take care, and don’t give up.

Sincerely,

Pamela

Thank you for reading everyone. Have a bless day.

Stay tuned for Day 24.

 

April Writing Challenge- Day 22: My First 10 Songs On Shuffle


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It’s no secret that I love music, and I mean extremely love it. I’m sure a lot of other music do too, probably just as much or more. There have been times when I would put together a playlist on my own, or without my help, Youtube or some other music streaming app would do it for me. Having songs shuffled save me from having to look for them, especially if they are songs I love hearing on repeat.

Today’s writing challenge is about putting my music on shuffle and post the first ten songs. The thing is about this is that I have done this already some time before just randomly listening to music. I like putting categorize music like for instance: Slow R&B, 80’s Rock, Reggae, and so on. I have a thing of having everything organize, and doing this with music helps as well. Though, I believe I can only list one group. 

Disclaimer: The embedded Youtube videos are not my own and I don’t own any rights to them.  You can feel free to listen/watch the songs in Youtube by clicking on the image and it will take you there, or however you wish. Thank you.

(The playlist can be view by clicking the horizontal three lines in the upper right corner to view the playlist in its entirety. You will then be able to listen to the songs listed below that were shuffled. And the songs changes up in the playlist.)

            My List of Shuffled Songs That Is One Of My Favorites.

  1. Shanice- It’s For You
  2. Zhane- Sending My Life
  3. Marsha Ambrosius- Far Away
  4. Ralph Tresvant- Sensitivity 
  5. Raphael Saadiq ft. Q-Tip- Get Involved
  6. Brownstone- If You Love Me
  7. Shanice- I Love Your Smile
  8. Michael Jackson- Butterflies
  9. Portrait- Here We Go Again
  10. Kris Kross- Jump

 

Have you heard any of these songs before? And what songs do you like listening to on shuffle? 

I hope you all enjoy your day and remember to be safe out there and stay bless.

Stay tuned for Day 23. 

April Writing Challenge- Day 21: Three Lessons I Want My Child To Learn From Me


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When I was a lot younger, there was only one person I can truly say had taught me something about life in general, and that person was my dad. Other than that, it was life experiences that taught me a little more than I care for. And I can say that it made me the woman I am today. That sounded cliche but it is the truth. We go through things or lessons because it supposes to teach us so we can learn and do better. And to be better.

Today’s writing challenge is for me to write about three lessons I want my children to learn from me. Well, most of you know I have only one child- a girl. So as far as children I will include any future child(ren) I may or may not have with the one I have now. I love my child and I want the best for her. This world isn’t safe, life isn’t fair- it’s how we deal with it, and some people wear the kind of masks to hide the real them. I want them to know what’s real and what’s not. And to learn who is for you and who is just faking it.

1. Choose yourself first. I want my child(ren) to know to put themselves first. They are worthy of being someone who has morals and values and will not accept anything less than what they deserve. I have been the type of person who had put herself last. I would give so much of myself and helped others that I would have no time, energy or money for myself, mostly for the wrong people. I want my children to know that they don’t owe anyone anything who done them wrong. I want them to take what they want out of life seriously and not to take any b.s. There are people who would take your heart in their hands and take it apart. There are people who will take advantage of you and confuse your kindness for weakness. I am currently teaching my daughter this now.

  1. Get started in life doing something productive early. I’ve spent my life writing what the heck I want to do with it in notebooks since the sixth grade. I would day-dreamed about the life I want and would be so caught up that I wouldn’t hear the teacher calling my name. It left the class laughing at me and I was nicknamed Dreamer. It was better than the other stupid nicknames I was called. I would like for my children to not waste time not doing anything they want to do in life. I want them to also not to put their dreams and goals on the back burner just to help someone who might not give two-cents about you. I am currently working on getting my daughter to realize that she has her whole life ahead of her and she shouldn’t waste it by playing video games and watching Youtube. I am so behind in life putting my needs and wants last for people that I want my child any possible future children to learn that you don’t have all the time in the world. And if there’s something you want to do and be, then get started. I want it to be their choice, but yeah, I have visions on what I want my child to do and be. But, I don’t want her to be pressured and only do it for my sake.
  2. It’s okay to say no. You can’t help everyone, and shouldn’t stretch yourself thin trying to do so either. You are only one person and if you over-extend yourself, where would you find the time to get anything done for yourself, or to just take a rest. I want my child to learn from me that if you can’t do it or don’t have the time, or just need the rest, it’s okay to say no to others. They shouldn’t do anything they aren’t comfortable doing and anything that would harm them. They should take from me that if you don’t say no, you may find yourself getting too deep of always being that “yes person” that a person may guilt-trip you into doing something they want you to do. I don’t want my child to be mean or negative about, just kindly say, “no, I cannot,” and go on about your day. No explanation needed. I want them to ask themselves would that person stop what they are doing just to help you? Do they say no often to something you ask them for help about? I don’t want my child or any children of mines I may or may not have to be a people-pleaser. They should know that they come first.

Though there are a lot of other lessons I want my child to learn from me, unfortunately, I can only name three. Just like challenges, lessons are growth. And you may end up discovering something about yourself that you have never known.

What lessons do you want your child and/or any future child(ren) to learn from you?

Thanks for reading and stay safe.

Stay tuned for Day 22.